Anticipation and fear fuel me as I hear the engines roar and
I feel the plane in motion. So long I
have hovered in my quiet, small world, nourished by my family, close friends,
healthcare providers and internet friends.
Leaving my safe place after three years is exciting and frightening, as I venture into a new place leaving my
cocoon of protection, my home. I realize how safe I feel in my little hut of protection
after this three year journey of the unknown, living with a Rare Diseases.
Who will care for me in a new location in California? Will the doctors understand my needs if my
health fails me? There are so many what ifs I face that no one
understands.
Because Stanford Medicine X said yes to my application as an
e-Patient scholar I am traveling across the country from coast to coast. I’ve had so many obstacles to overcome
beginning with my own health along with my dad’s health. Building a presence on social media is time
consuming yet essential as I search for answers to why I am so sick along with
my patient community.
I am here. I am
taking off the ground and venturing into a new chapter. Hope tells me miracles happen and remission
can be forever. Fear says, OMG what if
your legs swell and you can’t walk, your fatigue is so bad you can’t think when
you arrive at this medical conference?
Reality says, I can handle
whatever comes my way because I have a husband that will do anything for me, a
family that won’t allow me to feel sorry for myself and God to give me the
wisdom and gifts needed to be all I am
meant to be.
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